HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, MR. TAYLOR.
10-10-15. Two years ago today I was a bundle of nerves, excitement, and pure joy. I spent the day with all of my favorite ladies, had the sweetest dress reveal with my daddy, and married my long-time, first love. We celebrated on his family’s property, had some breakfast for dinner, and ended the night with fireworks. It was so sweet and so dreamy.
Thinking back on this day has brought me to tears several times this week because it feels like a dream – something that’s hard to piece together now. I know that sounds so goofy with it only being two years ago, but I live so focused on the present and the future. I’m always so consumed with what’s going on around me – my job, relationships, and ministries (which is great btw!) It was so sweet to escape reality for a bit and just spend time with each other. Our lives are really fast-paced – which is a generational thing in combination with our personalities and TBH we wouldn’t change it. Spending time in one of the most gorgeous places we’ve ever been, on a trip with just the two of us in a car for 5 days was bliss. Just me and my man, the California coast, and some roadtrip jams – nothing to do but love each other.
Our wedding day was all of the wonderful things it should have been – magical, memorable, and perfectly representative of Ryan and I, but it’s not the day I look back on the most. When I sit and reflect on the past two years I think about the dance parties in the kitchen, the fights that lead to growth, and the community of friends that has poured life into our marriage. I think about the hundreds of times we’ve eaten the same meal at Pei Wei, the weird Uber + Lyft rides on vacations, and the 3 – yes 3 times we’ve moved apartments. I think about the tears, the laughter, the frustration, and the joy we’ve experienced all from choosing to love each other 2 years ago.
Knowing Ryan has been a wild ride. We both prayed for a big love and that’s exactly what we’ve gotten with each other. Our lows have been low, but our highs have been higher. We’re continuing to learn about one another and learn how to love each other better. We grew up together and are still learning how to be adults together. Marriage is hard. It takes a lot of work, community, and prayer, but mainly it takes a whole lot of Jesus. My love for Jesus makes my love for Ryan so much sweeter and stronger. When I got married I was excited about our life together – where we’d live, where we’d travel, our family, our friends. I was so focused on our life on earth, and what being married has taught me is that our time on earth together as partners is to be in service of the Lord. Yes, we were created to be compatible for love, friendship, and fun (which we have way too much of sometimes ha), but we were made to be partners in ministry and in Kingdom work.
We have seasons when we rock this and some when we don’t, but it’s the greatest comission in my life to be able to serve alongside Ryan – to value his eternity, to build him up as much as I can, for the purpose of bring glory to God and reaching others. It’s what we were created for and no other person on earth is a better partner for me than Ryan.
He was created to be exactly what I need – he’s grounded, playful, and easy going. He’s practical and kind. He’s the shelter I run to when my anxiety and fear get the best of me. He’s the comedic relief when my over-organized brain gets out of control. He knows my flaws and chooses me anyway.
It’s really easy to get caught up in what your spouse isn’t, but I’m entering into a sweet season where God is revealing to me more wonderful things that Ryan is – in ways I haven’t seen before. We’ve been married for two years – which means that the new things are out of the way and the surprises are pretty much over, but I’ll be honest – the love is deeper, the passion is stronger, and the friendship has grown more than I thought possible.
So the honeymoon phase can take a hike cause I’m pretty comfortable in the “two years, really comfortable together, travelling a lot, insanely great friends” phase.
Ryan, you’re my dream. You were when you were 18 and you are even more now. Thank you for such a fun, beautiful and purposeful life. I love you!
If you want to see the greatest 6:02 minute video of all time, here’s our wedding video. I’ll be over here sobbing with gratitude.
– Caitlin –