Photography: Madeline Harper Photo
Do you ever wish you could turn parts of yourself off?
Lord, I wish I could. I have lots of parts that I wish I could switch off daily, but the most powerful one is easily my need to be doing something. I truly annoy myself with this one. Not to blame my DNA, but it’s totally a family thing, too. My dad can’t sit still, his mom can’t sit still, and every generation of Robertson’s seems to be this way. My family members have seemed to master how to balance work and rest, but unfortunately, I’m not quite there yet. I struggle so bad with feeling like I constantly have to be moving, accomplishing something, crossing things off my list – doing more.
Are you like this, too? Do you sometimes feel like a slave to your schedule or time? Do you maybe set yourself up for standards that you can’t meet? Also, here’s a real question that’s painful to ask: do you cast these expectations of “more” onto the people you love?
Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.
With an endless amount of information, people, relationships, experiences, etc. available to us, it’s so hard not to get overwhelmed by it all sometimes. The daily input that goes into our brains can crossover into an unhealthy territory before 9:00 am. We’re silly if we think this doesn’t affect us, either. Sometimes I feel like my body is in a weird struggle where my brain says, “more” and my heart says, “that’s enough.” If I’m being honest, I lose this struggle too much.
My brain is a winner and I more often than not choose activity over rest; I pursue “more” instead of contentment.
Contentment isn’t second nature, y’all. What’s crazy is that I’m so content with my life and that’s genuine, but my desire for excellence in every are of my life is super real. Here’s the thing, too, you can be pursuing the Lord and in prayer/community/the word/ALL THE THINGS and still be pursuing some wrong things, too. Eventually, life and that sin will catch up with you and wear you down like it does for me. I have such a strong desire to be the most excellent wife, friend, daughter, sister, and child of God that I sometimes get lost in it all. Isn’t it so bizarre how easily we can ruin the best and most righteous of intentions?
So enough of the serious talk – HERE’S WHAT I KNOW + WHAT I NEED YOU TO HEAR:
1. The pursuit of things from this world: acceptance, attention, money, fame, security from man, will end up putting us a million steps backwards. It may not happen now or anytime soon, but it WILL happen.
2. God offers grace at any moment. He is always waiting with open arms for us when we need rest and peace. There is never a wrong time for a reset on our lives, attitudes, habits, and priorities. Amen?
3. Instead of pursuing everything we can from life, we need to pursue God with everything we can. This will lead us to become far more than anything we could imagine for ourselves.
4. Contentment provides the purest and most powerful confidence and the Holy Spirit is READY TO USE THAT IN US.
5. Contentment is an attitude and a daily choice. It’s not something that is a quick fix and sometimes it takes a whole lot of dang effort. So if you’re like me, then apply all that crazy effort you’re putting towards whatever and apply it towards contentment (Speaking to myself there, mainly).
OKAY rant over. Whew!
I have no idea where this post came from, by the way. I definitely had something else planned but that’s the beauty of writing and having a blog. I really think this applies to someone out there, though. If it doesn’t apply to you, thank you for getting through this ginormous ramble.
Choose contentment today, friends. Steady your hearts. Pursue the God of grace and mercy.