It’s crazy to me that March is almost over. I spend a lot of time before each month praying and preparing for each theme for She’s Taylored. Honestly, since I spent so much time preparing and writing for this month, I didn’t really expect to come out with much insight. I knew which days had which topic and I had written most of them out already.
But goodness I was so wrong.
I’m walking into April with such a different understanding of what it means to find Joy in Lord. I didn’t realize how much I had compartmentalized Joy in my life – that you either had to pursue Joy when times were impossible or when they were near perfect – no in between. I’m realizing that sometimes, a lot of the time, our lives consist of just finding Joy in the ordinary.
In the 9 to 5. In the carpool pick ups. In the weekly chem classes.
The month of February had highs and lows for me, making it almost a gut reaction to seek the Lord for Joy. Life has since calmed down – something I’m really grateful for. It had gotten to the point to where I was craving a regular routine again.
Then I got the regular routine and started going 100 miles per hour again. I so often find myself waiting for the “next big thing” in life. What’s the next thing I can plan? What’s the next big move?
Talk about not being content or present. I’m failing at all the big buzzwords lately.
And then I felt that small, still Voice telling me to pause. And I’m just going to be honest with you – I straight up ignored it for a few days – convincing myself that I had things I needed to do instead.
And like it always does, the Holy Spirit won and I paused. Hard. I stopped. I let go of weird expectations I put on myself and the type of wife, daughter, sister, friend, etc. I should be.
I chose grace for myself and I chose Joy in the Lord. In the perfect and incredible ordinary.
I didn’t choose pursuit of the best vacation, the best wardrobe, or the best Instagram photo.
I immediately and since have felt nothing but peace.
And of course Joy.
And as we’ve talked about before – Joy isn’t always happy and bubbly. Joy is sometimes just gratitude. Acceptance. Awareness. Tiny little evidences of God’s grace.
So if you’re like me, a dreamer, planner, doer, etc. – allow yourself to experience the greatest Joy in the ordinary, in the in between moments.
When you change your perspective and your heart a bit, you’ll start seeing that those small moments are incredible.
“In the rush and noise of life, as you have intervals, step home within yourselves and be still. Wait upon God, and feel His good presence; this will carry you evenly through your day’s business.” William Penn
You deserve that peace + contentment. Just pause (or if your like me – STOP GIRL).
Seriously thank you for reading. It means more than you’re know!
– Caitlin –